with clients over the past twenty years has given me the opportunity
to explore the world of multidimensionality first hand as I intuit
with my clients and guide them through non-ordinary reality. I
have had the opportunity to work with many, many interesting people
and to follow along on their journeys into the subconscious and
unconscious minds. As their stories unfolded I began to piece
together a somewhat unique view of life and, also, of the birth
process. Following is an overview of life as I see it from the
perspective of many journeys into the subconscious/unconscious.
Much of it is supported by research in the areas of fetal development,
psychology and metaphysics.
human beings exploring physicality on Planet Earth, most of
us have been caught in a cycle of reincarnation for thousands
of lifetimes. Very, very few people have had only a couple
of lifetimes, although this is a widely held view. On the macrocosmic
level we are an extension of God, Goddess, All That Is in its
search of understanding, growth, Self. On a microcosmic level
each of our lifetimes is an extension of our Higher Self in search
for understanding, growth, becoming more of God, Goddess, All
That Is. Our different lifetimes and different life experiences
are an opportunity for our Higher Self, through Soul/Spirit, to
experience all that there is to experience. Somewhat unique
about Earth (and the reason most of us chose to incarnate here)
is that earthlings have the opportunity to experience a full range
of emotions. We have come to Earth to learn to be masters of emotion--to
learn to create using thought and feeling.
some people refer to as karma, I like to call The Search for
Experiencing All to Reach a State of Balance. Overall
the Soul/Spirit do not operate in a chaotic fashion. As the overseers
or coordinators of life's experiences, Soul/Spirit are involved
in extensive planning and study in preparation for the "next"
lifetime. The wisest of counselors are consulted and elaborate
plans are drawn up for the more complex lifetimes and are made
part of a vibrational blueprint.
Hall of Decision-Making or Room of Contracts is a place where
clients often go in the in-between worlds. In this hall you meet
with High Self, Soul/Spirt, the pure soul essences of your parents-to-be,
future family members, friends. It is here that your life's purpose
and the reasons to be born into a particular family are decided.
The records of those choices can be found and read giving important
insight to your life's path. Prior to conception your High
Self, Soul/Spirit make very specific decisions about who you will
be and the framework of the life in which you will operate.
All of this is done in order for you to explore specific emotions
in the Soul's thirst for balance and the experience of All. Plans
for the future life on Earth always look easier from the "other
side" where the veil of forgetfulness can not be fully comprehended.
In the in-between world separation from God, Goddess, All That
Is is merely a concept.
-- Spirit Meets Matter
the event of your conception perhaps your parents were happily
married; or maybe they were "chance" lovers who never really knew
each other.. Your particular circumstances were planned as the
framework in which you were to experience the emotions your Soul/Spirit
wanted you to explore. At the split moment of conception the egg
and sperm from the physical bodies of mother and father fuse.
A fragment of mother's life force and a fragment of father's life
force enter the original cell. As the cell divides and grows,
these life forces establish themselves in developing your four-body
system -- emotional, mental, etheric, astral. At the instant
of the explosion of conception another life force enters as a
gift from God, Goddess, All That Is. This gift of life force acts
as an instinctive connection to our spiritual source; it is a
knowing that we are eternal. Our conscious awareness of conception
is forgotten but our deeper cellular, psychic and spiritual memory
haunts us all to remember Home.
Memory, Core Beliefs, Genetic Programming Begin
and father's life spark usually settles in one, but sometimes
in many different places within either the physical, auric or
etheric fields. The location influences how you relate to your
parents and other authority figures. Also, core beliefs regarding
the dynamics of sexual relationships are often traced to this
powerful point in time because each of your cells contains the
exact emotional imprint of what mother was feeling when making
love with father. Likewise, each cell contains the emotional imprint
of father's feelings.
the fetus continues to develop over the next nine months, it is
a thinking, feeling entity busy observing its surroundings.
Mostly etheric in the earlier months, becoming more physical as
it nears birth, the fetus is not confined to merely observing
the warm darkness of the womb but is eavesdropping on the world
surrounding mother. Because of the very strong bond with mother
that comes from sharing her body and seeing the world view through
her "eyes", 80% or more of our pre-verbal core beliefs originate
directly from mother. The remaining 20% come from father and significant
other people who are close to mother. The fetus empathically absorbs
every body sensation, emotion and thought that mother or others
close to mother are experiencing. That information is part of
the preparation for life after birth and is crucial to survival.
As the fetus absorbs the body sensations, emotions and thoughts
that it is exposed to in the womb, it stores them in specific
locations -- most of which are learned from mother's storage pattern.
After birth many of the same somatic patterns learned in the womb
continue automatically. (Note: How and where we store emotions
has a great deal to do with our physical appearance and development
of illness throughout our lives and is especially noticeable as
we age. Hence, often we look more and more like mother as we grow
older. Illness that is attributed to genetics may actually be
more linked to like-emotional response/storage.)
experience of pregnancy is individual and can have lasting effects
on the fetus she is carrying. If mother was consistently experiencing
stress, anxiety and tension throughout the gestation period the
physical body of the fetus/newborn/child/adult will experience
anxiety and tension as his/her body's natural feeling-sense. Some
of the other important developmental and emotional womb-time experiences
that need to be examined follow: 1) In some cases mother's physical
body attempts to reject the fetus causing it to develop/survive
in a hostile womb environment. The result could be core associations
being made between mother's love, physical pain, rejection, self
worth and the ability to be loved. 2) Mother's addictions to tobacco,
alcohol or drugs during pregnancy causing addiction behaviors
that are anchored in the womb-time. 3) Feelings of abandonment,
loss, grief, fear, stress, anxiety, etc. resulting from mother's
feelings about father, her parents, incidents that happened to
her or core beliefs that she had absorbed from her mother. 4)
Feelings of being spaced-out, confused and not being in the body
could be responses that were learned from mother in her attempt
to avoid or deny. 5) Mother's reaction to stress, her withdrawal
from intimacy, etc. during pregnancy may result in the child/adult
repeating the same patterns throughout life.
we grow up we believe that what we feel is ours alone when what
we are actually experiencing are mothers/father's/significant
others' feelings. Habits and beliefs picked up from mother are
not natural to the fetus/child -- they are instinctual. They were
learned or absorbed from mother and then assumed to be natural.
These borrowed behaviors, feelings, core beliefs can be transcended
once they are uncovered.
and "Last" Lifetime Oversee Fetal Development
conception Spirit enters the original cell and then continues
to oversee and energize the construction of the physical body
using a blueprint supplied by the Soul.
life essence from the "last" lifetime (not linear -- the lifetime
whose issues or emotions are most closely linked to this lifetime)
also joins at conception and then participates in directing the
cellular growth as it cooperates with Spirit. This "last" lifetime
influence has usually completed its task by the end of the third
month and quietly retreats. It often transfers and leaves behind
its core beliefs becoming a source of, for instance, "groundless"
rage, sorrow, fear, etc.
oversees Spirit in the fetal development and waits to commit to
the lifetime until it is assured that the framework being developed
will support the original purpose of the lifetime. If the
framework is sufficient it will enter the body at the appropriate
time. Some souls enter at conception or during the fetal stage.
Most seem to enter closer to birth and may wait as long as 72
hours after birth. If the Soul does not commit to life within
72 hours of birth, the infant dies. After birth and throughout
the lifetime the Soul continues its assessment of the lifetime
and its commitment to remain in the physical. Sometimes a Soul
chooses to leave because the lessons have been learned and desired
experiences achieved. At other times the personality or circumstances
can veer so far off from the original plan that the desired growth
is not possible. In this case it is best, from the Soul's perspective,
to start over.
Soul and Spirit oversee development of the auric, etheric, emotional
and mental bodies, the cellular physical body consciousness develops
separately. The physical body is the synergy of the trillions
of individual cell consciousnesses which create it. That synergy
is the body consciousness, an awareness that is physical.
It is an earth consciousness and not related to Soul or Spirit.
Sometimes hostilities develop in the body consciousness, especially
at the time the Soul enters the body. These hostilities can manifest
in physical problems such as coldness or numbness or loss of functioning
in different parts of the body. They can manifest emotionally
as feelings such as not being good enough or, mentally, as the
inability to focus or concentrate. If the body's individual cellular
earth consciousness overrules the Soul consciousness, then diseases,
addictions and many other uncomfortable and unhealthy behaviors
actual birth begins when mother's water breaks and her contractions
start. As the fetus goes through the process of being expelled
from its home, its emotions mix with mother's fears, expectations
and thoughts to form core beliefs concerning adventure, the unknown,
the ability to choose or control surroundings, etc. Difficulties
encountered when navigating the birth canal may develop such diverse
core feelings as claustrophobia, unrealistic fear of dying, security
concerns or mistrust of male/female authority figures. If mother
was drugged, then the child also experienced that drug and entered
the world feeling spaced-out, confused and disoriented--thinking
that this is what life feels like. Tightening of the body as it
enters the cold delivery room can register as the natural way
to hold the body, resulting later in tight, tense and exhausted
muscles. Likewise, entering into a bright room can cause tension
in the eyes which, if held as a natural pattern for several years,
could lead to eye disfunction.
is our most traumatic life experience even if it is a healthy
and natural birth. There are many possibilities that can add
additional trauma to the birth process and contribute to negative
core beliefs. For instance, if the umbilical cord is cut or clamped
before the child's lungs are fully operational, the adult may
experience addictions, breathing disorders, feelings of mistrust.
How the infant was forced or coerced into breathing often has
far-reaching effects. Chronic lower back pain, ankle and knee
problems may have originated from the shock of being held by the
ankles, dangled in the air and smacked on the buttocks.
birth is the most traumatic of life's events, there is much help
and support given from the unseen spiritual world. The infant
is alert to all of the beings who are assisting in the birth process.
High Self, Soul/Spirit, counselors, guides, teachers and various
other helpers such as witnesses and recorders line the room singing
a tone or sound that is the etheric musical equivalent to the
newborn's Soul vibration. The unseens sing the child's soul name
and hold space for him/her to be born and then to breathe the
first breath of life. This event can be recalled and relived.
Re-experiencing the vibration of the Soul allows the comparison
of our current vibration to that of the pure vibration of our
Soul for the purpose of alignment. (Note: Our Soul chooses our
given name prior to conception because its vibration/meaning is
in line with our Soul's purpose. The Naming is the first of our
seven life-phases of the Soul.)
most devastating loss to the fetus/infant is the loss of the intimacy
and safety of unconditional maternal love. The emotional connection
between mother and fetus while in the womb is one of soul to soul
or unconditional love. Upon birth the infant and mother relate
to each other as physical beings and the personality of the mother
can not offer the unconditional love that her Soul has constantly
provided in the womb. Mother's personality usually does not know
how to love as deeply as the newborn is ready to receive, and
mother can not receive what the newborn has to offer. There is
a brief soul reunion after birth when the infant is placed on
the mother's body, but this is short-lived and the connection
is lost. This experience echos the loss we felt when we originally
left God, Goddess, All That Is.
Beliefs from Birth to 18 Months of Age
is an extreme physical and emotional trauma that often occurs
shortly after birth. The act of circumcision anchors core feelings
relating to authority figures, self, helplessness and anger, to
name just a few. Cutting of the umbilical cord may physically
separate mother and child, but the infant remains totally attached
to mother mentally, emotionally and spiritually until the age
of 18 months. In fact, the infant can not discern where mother
ends and he/she begins. Just as in the fetus, the infant picks
up body sensations, emotions and thoughts directly from mother
and adopts them as his/her own. Post-partum depression, frustration
at lifestyle change, lack of sleep, etc. all directly affect the
infant and contribute to core beliefs. Core beliefs formed
before the age of 18 months are pre-verbal. Because of this
they can be more difficult to pinpoint or access and must be handled
differently than core beliefs formed in the verbal stage.
Is a Core Belief?
we begin to speak we continue to form core beliefs. Often we are
reinforcing the core beliefs that had developed pre-verbally.
The reinforced pre-verbal core beliefs become stronger. (Note:
Many people have done inner child work, finding the core beliefs
of the child. This approach is only mildly successful if the belief
actually originated in the fetal or pre-verbal stage.)
Beliefs Coming from "Past" Lifetimes
beliefs can also originate from "past" lifetimes. (These are actually
concurrent lifetimes and multidimensional aspects of You.) Core
beliefs can also originate in any of your evolutionary cycles
"prior" to your Earth experience extending all the way back to
separation from God, Goddess, All That Is or Source. These core
beliefs originating outside of the present life focus have an
impact on your current life, but they do not cause or create incidents
in your present life. The connection to a "past" lifetime may
be very strong if it resonates closely to the current lifetime.
Weak areas of emotional development in another lifetime may be
the weak areas of emotional development in this life focus. Often
we get caught in a loop and repeat the same patterns and sequences
of events from lifetime to lifetime. By discovering and healing
core beliefs in "past" lives we can help to pinpoint and transform
similar core beliefs in the current lifetime.
the Reincarnational Cycle/Coming Home
many of us our Souls have planned this to be our last lifetime
on Earth. However, in order to complete our incarnational entrapment,
we must encounter in this lifetime everything that we had not
been able to master or complete or let go of in "past" lifetimes.
Out of necessity, in the planing stages of our current lifetime,
most of us threw in all of our unresolved Soul issues and, as
a result, have developed very weighty core beliefs. In this,
our last Earth incarnation, we are confronting what our Soul would
consider its most difficult tasks or most important lessons.
Throughout this website there are references to past, present
or other time-related delineations. Since we are in the third
dimension and do experience time as linear I felt that, for simplification,
it would be easier to refer to events in a time sequence as we